CLARA BARTON DIARIES AND JOURNALS Apr. 2- July 23, 1863Capt Walter Engineer Corp. ? Clara H. Barton Washington D.C.I have been sadly remis in the jottings of my journal but now that I am entering a new field I will endeavor to commence and sustain something in the form of a regular diary. Near the close of the session of Congress my brother David was appointed and confirmed by the U.S.S. as Quartermaster of Vols with the rank of Capt. and subsequently was ordered to report at Port Royal S.C. arrived at Washington on the 23- of March, with some hope that his order might be changed, but this not proving practicable, I decided to accompany him, and obtaining permission from the War Dept I made ready and left Washington for New York on the evening of Monday- [?] arrived at NY Tuesday morning and were driven directly to the Washington Hotel corner of Broadway and State Stsa short distance form the office of the Chief QuarterMaster Major Van Vliet - The day was very stormy. we reported at 10 o'clock - and returned to remain at our hotel - The next morning a note of mine reached Newell Bertram who came in the P.M. to call upon us and we decided to go with him to the La farge if not to sail on Thursday. On Wednesday while walking down Broadway I met the Brother of Sergt Plunkett and went with him to the New England rooms to see the Sergt who was the guest of Col. Howe and Mrs. CA Russell, he had secured some four hundred dollars. I was shown over the establishment very courteously and was delighted with the excellent order and good feeling displayed in all its arrangements - On Thursday morning April 2nd removed to the Lafarge House and became the guests of Newell Dr. Brown called upon me in the afternoon, also Plunkett with cards to attend Genl Butlers address next morning received a call from Dr. and Mrs. Brown of the "American Baptist." a call from President Henry [Pierce] the day before - did some shopping, and learned that the boat (Arago) would sail on Saturday - had taken our transportation the day before, - on Friday evening we recd a call from Sergt Plunkett. & brother and Mrs. Russell and to my great joy learned that he was the fortunate recipient of 4000 dollars, two thousand ofwhich had been given him that day at the Brokers Exchange, I wrote Col Clark and the 21st of his good fortune, also wrote Sam, and proposed to embark at 9 o'clock next morning at which hour April 4, 1863 we found ourselves on board the Arago. Capt. Gadsden bound for Port Royal. In the Ladies Cabin I met Mrs. Van Wyke of Middletown, [Orange Co, N.Y.] her sister Mrs Dubars and daughter. Mrs Van Wyke came to accompany her two and only sons on board - Col Charles and George the Chaplain, she is a lovely lady. The Col goes to join his command at P.R. The boat got underway about noon, and before dinner I was too sick to partake the weather proved more rough than at any time for some years on the same trip and had a general time of "casting up accts" On board are two ladies going as teachers - Miss Eliza J. Smith North Pitchertown, Chenango Co NY. goes to Fernandino - and Miss Julia H. Grahame of NY City also among our company are Gen Gordon and Genl and Col. Littlefield 14 Ill. Cavalry Secty Hays {President Lincoln's Secty} Dr. Green of NY, a friend of the Campbells in correspondence with Miss Mary C. Col & Chaplain Van Wyke Rev Mr. Williams of Christian Commission. This is Tuesday morning clear and cold we are below Charleston, windy, the water is not settled after the blow. we are having a little chat in the ladies cabin David up on all deck he is not as well and cheerful as I could wish.April 7th 1863: Tuesday night I am confounded: literally speechless with amazement! When I left Washington every one said it boded no peace, it was a bad omen for me to start. I had never missed of finding the trouble I went to find, and was never late. I thought little of it - this P.M. we neared the dock at Hilton Head and a boat came along side and boarded instantly, the first word was "The first gun is to be fired upon Charleston this P.M. at 3 o'clock" we drew our watches and the hands pointed three to the minute - I felt as if I should sink through the deck. I am no fatalist but it is so singular - Well, after this, and papers were examined we went on shore, and had an interview with Lt. Col. Elwell whom we found confined to his bed with a broken limb from being thrown from his horse, or his horse falling through a bridge with him while fitting for the Expedition against Charleston. Words could scarcely describe all his kindness, he spoke in the most consoling manner to David, in reference to his fears and promised to be his friend I handed him my letter of introduction from Maj Preston & we returned to the boat. we were on board the Goldengate and in conversation with theCapt. I found that he [converge?] the Mass 21st to Roanoak I think, and [Carrie?] Cutter being on board of his boat. he spoke in the highest terms of her. I thought she might have been more closely looked after, and spoke of her burial beside her friend Chas Palmer. David found himself in command of the boat and we returned to the "Arago", too late for supper. but had some, and in the evening a boat left for Charleston with the Genls Col. Van Wyke, the chaplain, Chap Williams & c. I did not feel at liberty to go until all was settled as it should be [ ] then no matter what - retired at 10. and rested well -- Wednesday Apr. 8 1863 Conversed for a time with Dr. Hayden of West Philadelphia Hospital who was the originator of the Soldiers paper published there the back numbers of which he gave me and desired to make me a subscriber for the paper. it is an admirable work of the kind edited & written entirely by the inmates of the hospital - suddenly the Dr was called to go on shore in a tug and we decided to accompany him, came to Col. Elwell and had our quarters assigned between the Col. and Capt. Lamb whom we then met for the first time. David having been assigned to aid him, and whom we found to be the son of Dr. Lamb of Charlton. and a [kind] of relative, a very pleasant and kindly hearted man -Thursday Apr. 9th 1863 Called on Col Elwell in the morning and met his surgeon Dr. Craven Med. Dir. of the post and found in him the former surgeon of the 1st Regt Jersey three months men from Newark - recd several boquets of flowers took my meals with the mess Mrs. Lander called while we were at dinner. one of her nurses wished to see me in the ante room at the Col's - went after dinner and saw them but was quite at a loss to know what the nurse wanted of me. - The news from the front not very cheering. Col. Elwell does not feel quite inclined to have me go yet, but a permit from Genl Hunter has been sent to me, of course by the courtesy of Col Elwell. Friday April 10 - 1863 News arrived of the loss of the Keokuk, and the Washington ran aground near Port Royal Ferry and the rebels blew her up. We do not receive the most cheering news from the expedition -The Arago will sail in the morning and I wrote twelve letters to send by her. At length brought about the matter of Leanders appointment as Is [ ] - for David, a consumation most devoutly to be wished for, obtained duplicate passes for him and sent one to South Bridgton, and one to the Judge at Worcester least [Leander] may upon the strength of some suggestion of mine have left Maine with the intention of joining me in Washington. I note toSamuel R. Barton - and wife A. Newell Barton Judson S. Brown Hon. Ira M Barton -2 Leander A. Poor Julia t Barton Miss Mary Norton Rev. C. M. Welles Wm. Donaghy Chas E. Upperman Sergt. H. Gardner Mailed our letters at rise - did PM - had been on to the boat in the morning and taken the remainder of my baggage. Some Boats filled with troops arrive this PM from Charleston. reported that this place is in danger of an attack. hardly I think Saturday Apr. 11th 1863 Arago sailed at six. will stop off Charleston for dispatches. the news conflicting. the French Consul and lady went in her from Charleston. think the resistance of that city will be very determined. Dr. Horace Green the lung physician of NY City and a friend of the Campbells came down with us, and returned with the Arago. In the PM much to the consternation of everybody the transports laden with troops all hove in sight and soon the harbor was literally filled with boats and ships. the wharf crowded with disembarking regiments of troops with all the camp equipment they had taken with them, what had they returned for? was thequestion hanging on every lip - conjecture was rife. all sorts of rumors were afloat, but the one general idea seemed to prevail, that the Expedition had "fizzled", if one knows the precise meaning and import of that term. Troops landed all the evening and perhaps all night, and returned to their old camping grounds, the place is alive with soldiers no one knows why he is here, or why he is not there. all seem disappointed & chagrined, but no one is to blame for my part - I am rather pleased with the turn it has taken, as I had thought from the first that we had too "few" troops" to fight, and too many to be killed" - I have seen worse retreats, if this be one - Sunday Apr. 12th 1863 The transports line the harbor - troops are landing constantly. The old faces which were with us on the boat are seen about, and every thing looks as if the people had got home. without doubt they are surprised to see that we "keep the same old cat yet". while we think "Rufus looks [natural?]" This day has been fine. soldiers are cooking by camp fires and things smack somewhat of the old soldier times. I have commenced writing to Mr. Ward 24 - Union Place North London or 59 Packington place: regret that I have not a better diary such as I looked for in Washington.Monday Apr. 13th 1863 This has been the warmest day we have seen here - I have not been out at all for days, and it almost seems as if I never am to, any more. a dull life, and to little purpose only for the thought that the Lord knows best. I have been arranging a riding skirt, London brings my meals with a great deal of care; This evening while we were arranging to change rooms with Lieut. Lowell, Col Elwell sent me work that Genl Hunter would call, We had a very pleasant conversation, he tells me that five out of the eight Monitors become disabled in the first hour's fire, and it would have been impracticable to renew the attack the next day, and as he had but 10 000 troops to meet 50,000, he had only to make his bow and retire as the troops only went to occupy after the Gunboats should have taken the grounds. The engagement was to be strictly naval; he thinks our gun boats are as secure against the shot of the enemy as against the jar and recoil of their own guns, which appear quite as likely to injure them, and in some instances did so - A steamer will sail in the morning, it is rumored that a second regular boat is to be put on the line with the Arago, to run between here and New York. I hope it is so,Tuesday April 14th 1863 Removed our quarters today. taking a suit of rooms next to Col. Elwell - a great improvement, it is rainy and the wind has blown furiously all day. the waves have lashed the beach since morning - We are most kindly cared for, the Col has just sent in a stuffed rocking chair to me, which I fear he might need himself I have written Mrs. Stout this evening. Wednesday April 15 - 1863 Little of importance has oc- -curred today. one steamer sailed for N.Y. and one for Newbern. I called on Col Elwell a few moments, talked with the colored boys some about teaching them to read, set some copies; in the evening received call from Wm Elwell and his friend from R.J. also capt Lamb came and brought me some flowers orange blossoms and roses - rumor says that Rosecrans has defeated Van Dorn in the west -Thursday Apr. 16 - 1863. Day very fine. went to walk this morning, learned from a Ct man at the boat yard that the Ct 6th Regt were encamped a little distance from us - obtained a pass to go, but allthough I must not walk and no conveyance could be obtained, waited in Mr Lamb's office sometime went to walk still none saw the 76 Pa Zouaves- have ship to returned, Mrs Lander called, I went to dinner for the first time of late wrote this PM, went to tea, met some strangers, News reached us this AM, that Genl Foster is is surround? an our fleet is preparing to go somewhere either to draw them away by disturbing Charles ton, or to aid Genl Foster direct at Newbern. All busy tonight; fires all along the beach, boats [repairing?] &c teach the boys a little. Friday April 17th 1863 - Some movement relative to the projected Expedition. no troops embarked today, but a great deal of cooking doing - I went a long walk up the Beach. have seen no one whom I know, made really no effort.- recd a call from the Col's brother [Ira?] next my someone [seen?] in at evening and brought me a bunch of flowers from Col. Elwell who is always doing some kind thing for meSaturday April 18 - 1863 This has been the warmest day yet. quite early David brot in Rev. Mr Caldwell, the Chaplain who occupided a portion of his State room on the Arago, he is going home to Pittsburgh Pa, next came in Rev. Mr Williams of Christian Commission he had been at Beaufort. was on his way to join the fleet - Went out to the 6th Conn. regt, then embarking, and returned after a time, and ascertained that my friends were in the 7th Connt took their names - I called on Col[el?] Elwell, and Miss and Mrs. Terry called upon me, most delightful ladies, and Capt Lamb calls occasionally, and brings me a boquet from his [?] rose tree; the day has passed I scarce know how, but like many more of mine, I hope I may not be held too accountable for mispent time Sunday April 19th 1863 Another beautiful day, quiet as a good old fashioned Country sabbath. I wrote a little in the morning copied some scraps of sacred poetry for Col. Elwell - rcd. a call from Col. Halpin in the afternoon. [?] that he was formerly a 2nd Lieut in the 69. and was Col. Corcoran's [employer?] even while under him in the service - Later in the day I recd a note from Col Elwell to call a moment and did so. As usual his mind was [clear?] as a silver star and pure as white sand we had a long pleasant chat and I certainly felt more happy for it. - After returning to my room I practiced a little at mantuamaking, and found that my faculties had not improved at all by the long rest I had given them.Monday April 20th 1863 A pretty warm day varying according to opinion from 80° to 100° no evidence of a move, and yet I must think some move will be made at no distant day, but it may be with Hooker. A mail went up on the A C Thomas to Fortress Monroe this morning. I knew it just in time to write Julia and Sam, very hastily after this I worked still more up on a riding dress, and finished my skirt just now, and the whole suit is about ready Tuesday April 21st 1863 Looked for the Arago today but she is scarcely due before tomorrow. I finished reparing my riding jacket, and received a call from three men from Fort Pulaski, commanded by Col. Barton, learned that Mrs. Barton was at Genl Seymours Received a splendid boquet of rose buds from W. C. Elwell and made over one for the Col made a sack for Dr. Craven to put the Col's limb in, have a dull head ache all day and retired very early - too stupid and sleepy to make up my little page of diary.Wednesday April 22nd 1863 The Arago anchored in the stream at 11 oclock and sent up her mail. D and I went to walk and on our return found letters from his family and the Judge - later one came to me from Mr Welles Capt Lamb's son arrived - a number of ladies are said to have come down - all things conspire to give me an impression that this is not a sphere of usefulness for me. I begin to think that I must return on the Arago. I am by no means certain that I can even reach the Chowan and I am not sure about Newbern, but my [?] Army may [need?] me- Thursday April 23nd 1863 Letters from Mr Upperman and Mr Brown - I cannot decide to reply as I am uncertain if I remain. A refugee family, Thomas from Jacksonville Florida, going to St. Augustine, passed the morning with us. went on board the Arago, - called on Col. Elwell wrote Mr Upperman, I cannot feel settled to remain here without some object, and I can see no way of reaching N. C., and the Army of the Potomac are moving and I feel out of place.Friday April 24th 1863 Delightful morning - learned of the appointment of Wm Elwell on Gen Hunters staff, as Lieut wrote Mr Brown a long letter rather decide to remain David is unwilling to have me leave this trip. received a call from Col. Fessenden of Maine, one of Genl. Hunter's staff. [?] Son of Sen. Fessenden, a most agreeable gentleman. called at Gen Terry's Miss Terry ill - saw Mrs. Terry and the Capt, wrote M Welles in the evening and read letters from Sam & Amelia. Mary Norton and M [Deseter?] of Potomoc Florida asking a situation for his sister with me a photograph came, - very much care worn they say - Oh pshaw what nonsense for me to have pictures Saturday April 25th 1863 Pleasant and warm, commenced to write early to make ready for the Arago - received a call from Col Van Wyck in the A.M. and P.M. wrote his mother, wrote Capt [Denny?] at Newbern, and sent a letter to Mr W. Weaver on board the Hunchback, [via?] of Lieut W. [Field?] of [3?] NY Arty - in the hope of gaining some information relative to Stephen - Was sent for by Col. E. to meet Miss Mary Sage, daughter of Mrs. Francis D. Sage of Ohio, we have arranged to exchange visits - called again on the Col in the evening had a most delightful chat, was the happier for it. he is so calm and christian like, -Sunday April 26, 1863 Arose early to finish my letters and received a most beautiful note from the Col before breakfast. Wrote Sam & Amelia received a call from Col Van Wyck, we repeated poetry he has a most refined and delicate poetic taste, he told me of a poem I have not met "Only one pair of stockings to mend tonight," I will try to get it, we recalled the "Lady of the Lake," Capt Gadsden called to see him the conversation naturally turned upon the affair at Charleston, after their leave I wrote Leander at N.Y. Mary Norton, and Vira, but the Steamer was a few minutes to soon for the last. She left the dock at three o clock and is now on her way to take our letters and bring us more in return, what a life, and I am fearful that I ought to be in some other quarter although "whatever is, is right" - I know - Supper at 5, call from Capt Lamb I am sleepy, too little exercise and to frequent meals.Letters received and sent by the Arago, second trip Received. Rev. C. M. Welles - N.Y. J.S. Brown - Washington Saml & Amelia Barton - " Mary Norton - [for?], Hightstown J.M. Dexter - Actg 2nd Asst Engineer on Steamer Coeur De Lion, Potomac Flotilla, U S N. - Chas. E Upperman Sent - 25 Apr 1863 Chas E Upperman Judson S. Brown - Capt JW Downey CM Welles - Mr W. Weaver Mrs Van Wyck - on bd Hunchback Sam & Amelia - sent by schooner Mary Norton Julia A Barton Leander A Poor Ira M Barton Monday April 27th 1863 The wind still high and the schooners unable to get out to sea received a call from Mr. Williams he speaks of Newbern and I think of it; thinks Genl Foster is going ahead. I have replied to Col Elwell's note of yesterday morning and sent him some scraps of poetry. in the evening I called upon him and conversed a long time of old battle scenes and death bed - no, death ground - experiences I feared at length I had said too much and hastened away Mailed a letter to Vira, and am going to Paris Island in the morning to get Miss Sage. rained copiously this afternoonTuesday April 28th 1863 The wind all passed away with the rain and the sun is shining gloriously this morning, went to breakfast, and the Col. sent for me to come and see how well he was. he has his limb in a starched bandage and is going to get up today. Just after dinner it was rumoured that the Mayflower was ready - Capt Lamb David Willy and myself embarked for Paris Island followed the wrong creek, but finally got right by taking a pilot on board our little row boat. finally reached Mrs. Sage's plantation a little paradise of flowers A heavy shower came up, but finally it abated and with Miss Mary and the side saddle we returned, David was quite ill on the boat. took supper a call from Lt Col Mann, of 39 Illinois Regt and a seranade at midnight, found a bouquet in the hall [?] Wednesday April 29 - 1863 Pleasant morning. Miss Sage and I dressed Col. Man's hand which had been injured on ship. sewed on my checked skirt until afternoon it rained until 4 oclock then we i.e. Miss Mary, Capt Lamb, Will and myself went to ride on horse back. Rode to the Drayton plantation, the residence of the rebel Genl Drayton. on our return we took supper. looked in upon the Col. and received a call from Capt Hickock of Genl Hunter's staff and Mr. Davis Cor. of the "Philadelphia Inquirer," Col Mann, &c. some spicy anecdotes The Irishman's poetry eg.Thursday April 30 1863 Fine again - Attended to Col. Man's hand and sewed on my dress; David had intended to go on the boat to lay the telegraph wire, but for some cause did not, but went to ride. Sewed on my silk dress and wrote by a steamer to Julia & Sam. a number of steamers going home. in the evening received calls from Col. Mann (Mr Brown, two ladies from Newbern) Capt. Hickock of Genl Hunters staff, and called on the Col. had a [nice] intelligent feast. Engaged to go to ride with Capt. Hickox in the morning - Friday May 1st 1863 Another pleasant morning - Capt H came and Miss Mary - he and I went to ride on the beach, my horse was not of the most showy kind, but I made out very well with him and all came home in excellent humor just in time for dinner and a play with "Wile" and his "dog", a mail arrived and I read letters from a number of friends, while reading them Capt Lamb & Will came to invite us to ride again, which we did, - Miss Mary riding the Iron Gray and I Capt Lamb's best: in all a splendid turn out - we took a long ride outside the pickets and home in just time for supper, and another call from Wile, who has a sore eye, and then a call from Capt H and Lieut of Genl Hunter's staff - Capt H brought us Phil Inquirers and AtlanticSaturday May 2, 1863 Fine again: decided to write some letters. Miss Mary & Will went to Beaufort to see Mrs. Sage I wrote Mrs Copp and Sam and sent some letters with a note to the Col. to read, received a Spy containing resolutions from the Md 3 regt on the death of Willy Hacker in hospital. poor Mrs. H - went to ride with Capt Lamb - call from Mrs Terry invitation to tea at the Generals in season to have Miss Sage go, I remained home called on the Colonel, and decided to go to Paris Island in the morning - Sunday May 3, 1863 Miss Sage Will Capt L & I took the Cannonicus, in company with Mrs. Sage from Beaufort and Dr. Muzzy of Ohio (Inspector Medical Lt. Col) and made for Paris Island too late for the tide, waited four hours, dined on the boat getting ashore about four P.M. picked blackberries. [took ba] company returned to the boat we retired and in the night occurred the fearful tragedy of the destruction of Mary's rabit by a cat - a most diabolical atrocity but cats will be cats A "shout" by the negroes,Monday May 4, 1863. Rained in torrents -- Mary and I washed such fixings as we chose, which kept us both busy till 1PM -- Capt Cruso of the Flora came from Beaufort for cotton seed dined with us, went blackberrying with George -- I talked with Mrs. Gage a great deal. She has such excellent judgment and such correct and large views. The rain continued till it was too late to expect any boat from the other side and after a long conversation we retired Tuesday May 5 1863 In the morning went to ride over the Island with M. Geo Gage, there are some five plantations the "Means" which is the one occupied by Mrs. Gage is the lower, the Elliots are above, the productions, corn, rice, cotton, sweet potatoes, the ground is literally covered with blackberrys, just entering their prime, some strawberries. the tide covers a great portion of the island. the orange trees are well set with fruit and the magnolias are in bud. Some rain again today, but pleasant most of the time; expected a boat but none came, and after our days work at ironing, we retired all very comfortable.Wednesday May 6, 1863 Another fine morning, and after a little arranging about the house ironing my black silk dress and sitting down to repair it, a boat steamed in sight proved to be the Harriet A. Weed bringing the Capt, and Will. we could not return directly as Mrs. G wished to go with us & to Beaufort. We went to walk, dined and the tide was too low when we were ready and we waited till 4 oclock and still waited for the tide, the Governor Milton with the SubMarine cable came up - David on board - the cable is to connect Beaufort with Hilton Head & across Paris Is. reached home at 7. took supper and retired rather early. Mrs. Gage was very tired. Thursday May 7, 1863 Cool, pleasant day, Mrs. Gage went to the boat at 10. oclock David + I went to call on Col Russ of the 8th Main Regt. found him in his tent with adjt. Reynolds very pleasant call, came home at 4 oclock and went to ride with Capt. J -- took the mills stone Fort Mitchel and Seabrook in our way, and reached home at 7 1/2 after a pleasant ride of some 18 miles. Met Capt. Granger of Maine 9 at a plantation, and accepted a boquet from him. No steamer arrived as due, arranged the flowers we had gathered into boquets, the oleanders in full bud, brought them home in our pockets --Friday May 8 1863 Coldest morning yet. Still looking for the Arago. - Arranged some little matters. A call from Bev. Mr. Williams - at noon Jo. Elwell came in to announce the twofold arrival of dinner and the Arago. watched with great interest the approach of the vessel to the wharf. David went to the boat and soon brot back Leander and Mr. Worcester of NY brother of Worcester the Lex. - his son is sick in Genl Hos. here; Leanders trunk was opened and contained a little of almost everything. the new lamps are lighted - the papers are in up to the 5th Genl. Hooker said to be gaining ground and skirmishing desperately - rebel pickets hollered across the river that our "Hooker was whipped." A letter from the Judge & [Cuz ] Marie by Leander, called on the Col in the evening - Will -- Saturday May 9, 1863. Mrs. Gage came from Beaufort and went to Paris Island. Mr. Davis called with numbers of the Inquirer the Cosmopolitan the Hospital boat arr from Beaufort with 300 sick bound for N.Y., Charlie Fenwick as purser. In the afternoon went to ride down the beach and home through the woods. 18 miles, very sleepy and retired early have not written as I think I must return by the Arago. --Sunday 10 May 1863 Very fine + warm. still cannot write, and no one will consent to my going home. Went on board the Cosmopolitan, was much gratified by the comfortable appearance of all on board and the happy faces of so many going home. Saw Fred Davis of 25. Co I -- knew the Charlton boys. he was from South Brookfield -- sent on board all my copies of NE Sol Ret assotion of N.Y - Col Howe to have them distributed among the soldiers the boat left at four P.M. I wrote some, but cannot give up my desire to go on the Arago. I am not quite well situated, - to go - Monday 11. May. 1863 Still unsettled. My inclination says go. but others do not. called on the Col who spoke very candidly but really thinks I had best wait, and in view of my anxiety for Stephen, and to learn something of him, I decide to wait - I hope to reach the upper dept. before many days Flowers were gathered to send to Mrs. Capt Lamb - and I having decided not to go commence my letters - I am not certain if I have acted rightly - hope so - called on Col Elwell in the evngTuesday 12 May 1863 Very fine day. The "arago" left at 3 P.M. Mailed letters to Sam + Amelia. Mr. Brown Mrs Stout Mr Pratt. Mrs Davis + Capt Hickox called, while here Col Elwells servant brot in a plate of oranges. Leander wrote letters generally to his friends but not in business yet, the arago took home some hundreds of people, on furlough The Terry's all went. Rev. William Col. Mann. - in the morning we put up flowers to be sent to Mr. Lamb, a soldier in 1st Mass Cavalry from Leominster sealed them and boxed them up most scientificly It was a lesson for me Wednesday 13 May 1863 got impatient at something this morning- wrong no doubt Leander cut his foot with a piece of a bottle he was breaking. I made a mosquito net for David and Leander's bed. went to ride with Capt Lame on Lieut Lowells little pony, Dick in use. rode very slowly, tried to respect some poetry, as I had been holding a literary discourse with the Col. previously Leighton called in the evening, and mentioned a present of a turtle given the Col. I sewed on the net which I had commenced late I finished it and returned rather late. Present of two cans of ?Thursday, (scribbled out) 14 May 1863 not quite right this morning D + Leander tried to go to Tybee Island to try to lay cable, but were defeated. I arranged the Col's slipper for his lame foot, and went to ride with him in Genl Hunter's carriage down the beach almost to Bradocks Point and home through the woods by the quaint old Moss lane, late for dinner dined in the Col's room on turtle soup while in social conversation after dinner Col. Barton came in, spoke of Judge Brewer of Annapolis, sent regards to Mrs Barton at Fort Pulaski. Capt Lamb called and at tea Mr Brady announced the departure of the Steamer Ranger for Newbern in the morning. I insisted upon going. the general decision was against it, I went to confer with Col Elwell, who gave me a most emphatic "No." She was not sea worthy and he could never forgive himself if he allowed me to go to sea on such a craft. I waited and conversed through the remainder of the evening until 10 oclock - we were speaking at length of the apparent immediate interposition of Divine Providence. and ([someday?] to [giving Wash?] with [?] on the [ ?])(too faded to read) Friday May 15 - 1863 A change in the weather "wind in the East" a heavy swell, the Ranger came into the dock and David went on board. met the Capt Griffith. - and Chf Engineer the latter had been accustomed to run up and down the Chowan River, has seen Stephen's place, taken on lumber at his dock, and described Mr. Riddick who he says is a Union man, and frequently came on board their boat and dined. I wrote a letter to Capt Griffith describing Stephen, and one to Stephen. David took them to the Capt who promised to deliver it to Stephen in person, if possible. I recd a note called me to the Col's room and after some time we took tea. I passed still some more time, he describing the scenes of his more youthful days, speaking at length of the loss of his little ones and of the patience and Christian fortitude of his wife. Capt Lamb came after my return and after quite a conversation, I retired, too sleepy to write even my page in my diary.Saturday May 16th 1863 Still very stormy. the Mallone a perfect wreck, soon a boat from NY came bringing a mail, I received a letter from Mary Gage, and the Col sent one in his Tribune of the 11th unit Soon Capt Lamb came in with a Boston Journal and the intervening Phil Inqs from the 6 to 12; Genl Hooker has been in and beyond Fredericksburg fought some desperate battles, retreated across the Rappahonnic, and it would appear re-crossed and at last accts with eight days rations he was going on again -- our killed and wounded 10,000 I received letters from Mr Upperman Mrs. Holloway had wanted to see me and from Mr. Brown - thinks I must come home, tells me of the illness of Mr Fowler, and also of Mr Murdoch and his absence in Mass to bury his child, - God is great; and fearfully just, truly it is a fearful thing to fall into his hands. his ways are past finding out -- I wrote to Charlie R. Newcomb of Boston. I wrote at length and feel relieved that one waiting letter is answered. Col. Elwell sent me a plate of delicious oranges. Capt L was present and helped to enjoy them. at dinner learned that the Ben Deford would leave on Monday. I wonder if I ought to return on her. it will be wisely ordered and I shall do all for the best in the end. Gods will not mine be done - I am content, how I wish I could always keep in full view the fact and feeling that God orders all things precisely as they should be - all is best as it is - A call from Capt L in the evening and a present which I trust I may always keep. I hope so at least. have read all the news and am retiring this minute.Sunday May 17th 1863 Day fine. Performed some domestic labors in the morning - breakfast sent in, recd a call from Chaplain Van Wyck bringing a letter from the Col. desiring me to write the War Dept to have his mother come to Port Royal as nurse -- I went to ride with Col Elwell, a long way on the beach read a sermon (Beechers) I read a letter to him, dined together on our return I then called on Capt Lamb -- David and Leander went to Tybee Island on telegraph matters I passed the evening at my room, D & L did not return a servant brot a letter from the Col announcing Genl Hunter's opinion that our forces were in Richmond. I did not write as I had wished to, and I never do and cannot -- retired at 11 1/2 -- no one came home -- Monday May 18th 1863 Cool & beautiful day - David and [Lean?] returned about 9 o clock I wrote to Senator Wilson in reference to Mrs. Van Wyke - went to ride with the Col after dinner, went in to his room previous to that at his request to look through his monthly report of Q.M. papers -- our ride was most pleasant, we went down the beach and home through "Moss Lane" - Before I went to ride I had a call from Capt John Martin of the steamer Gov. Milton. he is a Norwegean well informed, and a republican am to write to Secty Watson. Was very tired after my return, and retired as soon as I could -- Steamers continue to arrive but no definite change in the news from the Army of the Potomac.Tuesday May 19. 1863. - Found early this morning that the Ben Deford (Steamer) would leave at 5 for NY. I wrote to Chas Newcomb. Henry Wilson, Asst Secty of War and Col Van Wyke. Mr Brown and Mr. Upperman and M Shaw At 4 Capt Lamb invited me to ride. went to Stoney's and gathered Oleanders - after our supper I passed an hour with Col Elwell, a most delightful interesting and improving conversation The col had invited me to ride but I had previously promised to ride with the Capt and the col. lost his ride. Harriot came to do our work about the quarters Wednesday May 20th 1863 Another fine morning. a note from the Col. to ride at 10. went, and took the sand road up to Moss Lane -- and out to the beach, and home in a most delightful breeze found a singular tall white flower on the bank of the beach. reached home at 2 1/2 - saw Capt Lamb on the beach in front of Genl Hunter's -- Dined with Col. Elwell - did not go to ride on horseback in the P.M. Sent a letter [from] to Col Van Wyck by the Chaplain - a gunboat brot papers of 18. no movement of Potomac troops, still in Falmouth. -- called on Col in com with Capt Lamb, to consult in reference to the proper person for me to report to, The gents disagree a little in the understanding, but finally I think will see it right. --Thursday May 2[2]1nd 1863 Sewed this morning. Harriot moved in to her apartment, Seems very much pleased, - recd a call from Col Russ and Adjutant Reynolds of 8 Maine at 11 1/2 Capt Lamb came with orders from the Chief Q.M. for me to report to him twice a day. The Cosmopolitan arrived with papers, - all quiet. a call from Charlie Fenwick, purser an invitation from the Col. to ride down the beach - up through the lane almost to Bradock's Point home at 6, a most charming ride. in time for supper, the Steamer Mass. had arr with mail letter from David from home, broke sad news of the death of Frank Bacon in the late skirmish - Stonewall Jackson reported killed by his own men thru an accident. Irving said to have consumption of the Bowels - Ben chills & fever. Sam a bone [zallow?]. Call from Capt -- Friday May 22 - 1863. Rose early and went to the Boat yard to discharge some pistols. Capt Lamb discharged two. I took no part. Mr Davis called, looks sick - arranged for him to go to Paris Island to get some milk. Col. Elwell rode with Dr. Craven up to see Genl Hunter. on his return he sent a note to invite me to ride, but I had pre- viously promised to ride on horseback and the colonel deferred his ride. but his mind was full of the future, and - will wait and see if this day be the eve of -- Our ride was pleasant- we were passed by Col Halpin Genl Hunter & ladies and came home slowly. took supper after the others. -- Charlie Fenwick called & Will-- the Cosmopolitan still lies here. It occurred to the capt. that we were taking the same ride as our first, through the lane from the beach, and it was the day of the good news. prophetic! in the evening called to make my evening report - found the Col discouraged - did not gain, war memories and thoughts he could not wait to get well I chatted it all away, and he laughed as heartily as he had mourned This has been a delightful day to me --Saturday. May 23. 1863 The day was fine. The "Arago" expected. The col's laugh did not harm him. I wrote Thad & Meighan & Sam & Amelice, sent by the Cosmopolitan going to Fortress Monroe. To take dispatches to. Will return in 4 or 5 days. reported to the Col. at 9 -- conclude to ride at 3 1/2 went a long ride via Mitchelville the negro plantation which the Col thinks the commencement of the solving of the problem of negro capacity to self support. The little houses were built of slabs, or round sticks with floors. on our return discovered the Arago, and rode down on the dock to welcome her. For some cause I am thinking much of Stephen. I feel as if he little respects my letter or so [?????] Sunday. May 24 1863 A fine morning. Arago at the [g????] My letters came, - Uperman, Brown Capt Denny from Newbern. Sam and [?] decide to go to Paris Island, take Mr Davis of the Inquirer -- at 12 went to the dock, loaded passage on the Ship a tug -- our small boat leaked landed safe - Mrs Gage & Mary just returning from church - dined walked, took supper, went to the boat could not find it in the dark returned and stayed all night - Mrs. Gage not well David remained at home and wrote - the island is swarming with insects, could not fancy it as a residence at this season great quantities of berries --Monday May 25. 1863 took breakfast with Mrs. Gage and went to the boat. negroes rowed us out at low tide. came home and wrote some letters - recd a call from Mrs. Lander who invited Col Elwell and I to come up on Wednesday and remain some days. we promised. I went and passed a part of the P.M. with Col. Elwell, did not go to ride, little or no news the Arago is unloading her cargo. Sunday. May. 26. 1863 [rainy?] - wrote letters all the spare time I could command. in the expectation that the Arago would sail tomorrow. Mr Brown - - Mr Upperman Sam & Amelia Capt. [Denney?] Mr Donaghy Annie Childs Willis Childs. - Made my usual calls - Commenced to rain in the nightWednesday, May 27th 1863 Very rainy - still writing, the wind blows a hurrycane. the waves are lashing the beach, and about noon who should arrive by perils of sea & land and leaky boats but Mrs Gage from Paris Island with George, and their darkey rowers they had lost their sail & tiller and the little "dugout" had no keel, and in the storm the sea had washed over them, until they were dripping, went into Capt Lamb's room and dried and ironed the wet garments and ironed my own "fine things" Saw Rosa from the [first?]. George could not get home, and Mary must have remained alone, called on the Col in the evening - Mrs Gage was very weary and had received news of the illness of her husband in the boat and was going on the "Arago" to see him if alive, the storm did not admit of the Arago's [G?ading] or something else did not permit -- Thursday - May 28. 1863 Still very rainy. Mrs Gage got ready at 10 and went on board the Arago but she did not sail, and Mrs. G returned. She had taken my letters, returned them, I [revised?] and sewed and made calls and tried to make my house comfortable for my guests. Terrible waves - George went home. -- we recd a paper containing an obituary on Cousin Frank Bacon by PE Aldrich - poor Frank he fell at Chancellorsville on Sunday morning. his body not received - Mrs. Gage prioritized me in the evening her readiness and rigen of mind are remarkable. she is a powerful woman and wins very much on my affection. Mr Lee PM called to see [M?] Mrs G occupies Wills room -- retired after a pleasant evening Capt Hickox & Miss Dyer called she is a teacher - father a Minister in Mass --Friday May 29. 1863 Very bright. Mrs Gage went to the boat at 8 she sailed at 9 1/2 - I forgot my letters, Seander took them to the tug - Capt Lamb sick. had been ill all night, better this morning - stayed with him an hour. moved my wardrobe from the back room to my own slept - dined with Capt. the first meal in his dining room. called on the Col. heard his church organization for an "army church" - My room was servable had a fire kindled, went to supper with the Capt. sewed in the evening - we are having a piazzo built in front of the house, Richmond Campbell, Harriets husband is sick, got him a blister plaster by Capt Lamb - Did not retire very early - begin to expect the Cosmopolitan, look with great interest have sent for a riding dress and saddle. Saturday May 30 1863 Dull again, gave Harriet a lesson in sweeping before breakfast which I took with the Capt and Frank, very pleasant and homelike; the Col. came to call at my window and ask me to ride. I made ready and am writing this while I wait for him to get through a business call, - The carriage engaged, did not go gathered my black silk skirt. Sewed [generally?] Mrs. Davis of St. [Augustus was?] upon a visit - [Mass lady]; a friend of the col's did not ride at all, - Harriot went to Beaufort for her sick husband. In the evening Leander and Pete commenced to sing and it resulted in a concert consisting of Leander, Mrs. Davis, Will, Capt Lamb, Leighton, Mr Marvin They got interested and sang until after midnight-. I got so tired and sleepy that I wished I had my old wagon to go to sleep in The weather is getting a little warmSunday May 31, 1863 Very warm morning. Harriot away - took care of our quarters breakfasted with Capt Lamb some one called on Mrs Davis I got shut out of my room before I got dressed by the occupyancy of others, and had to remain in [??y] nearly all the fore noon the ladies dined with us - and then went to ride in a carriage with Will & Capt. I went on horseback with David. The ride very high, home to supper - Mrs Davis went to Beaufort with her friend. I sat half asleep in the Capt's room till I slipped out and got home and have tried till now 10 oclock to get one minute alone today - verily there be too many "peoples." I am tired of too much company an unsatisfactory day - I am [sick? with? ?] Monday June 1, 1863 Clear and hot. I slept late & was only ready in time for breakfast. David commenced in the Capts room. after breakfast, the Col called for me, I went and took home a shirt to fix. after dinner Mrs Lander called, we went to ride. the Col took her to the hospital, & back - they had a sharp encounter about Mrs Landers riding on the front seat. after a gallant fight she was forced to yield, we left her at the Custom House and went on with our ride - in home in time for supper sat with the Capt & David and repeated poetry, and then a little later I sat with the Col and spoke of the past and the present of life, he is whole souled and deep, and I gather fresh strength from him.Tuesday June 2. 1863 Had begged off from going to Beaufort today, and washed and ironed some cloths in Capt Lambs room it has been very warm, David has entered upon his duties, Leander left the Col's mess and tries about town to find board. Col. Littlefield who is raising a colored regt, came to see Col Elwell in reference to Mr Davis, who he wishes to make a Capt of appoints him - the Col calls upon me, and speaks of David and his mental suffering on [boat?] decide to go to Beaufort if pleasant. Wednesday June 3, 1863 At ten o clock started for Beaufort with Col Elwell, Mrs Davis came down - we reached in safety. col Littlefield and Provost [met?] us at the boat with a carriage and four horses - a present of a beautiful pocket bible from the Col in the parlor of the Genl Hunter going up found Mrs Lander lain down after returning from Col. [?????]'s camp We dined at two. Dr Rogers of Worcester, Col Higgens's Surgeon dined with us, met Mr Pagi the correspondent of the Tribune, the Gentleman who spoke of me at the Lacey House, but did not know my name at the time, saw me with Genl Patrick - saw him come and remonstrate with me about remaining, thought every moment to see me shot. he has seen every battle of the Army of the Potomac, except Chancellorsvilleafter dinner we sat out a few minutes on the verandah. Mrs. Lander wished to rest. Dr Rogers joined us, and Mr Page - and finally the Colonel ordered the carriage for a ride. We visited the old Smith plantation, where John Smith first landed, the most beautiful grove of live oaks I ever imagined, acres regularly set out, not a bramble, and the pendant moss hanging from the branches, like the drapery of death so dark and so mournful, and as we turned to come back, the setting sun was sinking behind the distant hedge and throwing its splendid rays among the dense shag of the magnificent forest - the houses of Beaufort so far as seen are large and fine the yards splendid, - in the evening we were seranaded by Col Davis band. Splendid. the Col (Davis) Col Littlefield & Mrs. Davis (Capt) Mr Page &c &c - came to the verandha, and passed the evening. we decided to go to Col Higgins Camp at 8 oclock tomorrow -- The one great theme of the day has been the gallant raid of Col Montgomery and two hundred negroes. went out with the Sentinel & Harriet A Week, struck the mainland, went within 15 miles of Charleston captured several hundred thousands of dollars worth of property pushed through the [PR]country destroying thousands of $ worth of cotton - rice fields, and opened the dikes and turned the water into the fields took several horses and seven hundred negroes, all of whom are delighted, to meet relatives already here, some [200?] able bodied men, the negroes fought well and did not lose a man but killed and wounded a number of the [ ] enemy. They are anxious to go again, but will find opportunity. Thursday June 4 1863 Letters from Sam & Amelia - Upperman, Irving. Capt & Will brought them to me when they came up. ---------------------------- [written upside down] did return and we started to call on Mrs King at Seabrook but found it late I took the little white horse and had a most comfortable ride. The Fulton had just come up on our return and Capt went directly to get Frank off and has not returned at the [present?] writing - We have news that Grant has defeated Bragg in the west and got between Longstreet and Burnside so as to ensure the safety of the latter - We have more regts than usual on this island, and rockets were thrown up on the main land for ten miles last night - we look some for an attack here, the object may be to draw force from Morris & Folly - we are now on the defensive both there & here - I have written to Mrs Ambrose todayDecember 2nd 1863 Still clear and cold - the Fulton is due but not signalled Frank is to come on her. had an animated discussion in reference to going to Morris Island I want to go and the Capt looks black about it and Col Elwell calls it my "Folly Island folly" - I am all ready for ten minutes notice to go to the field. but do not like to disoblige friends who are so uniformly kind and indulgent I have a nice fire in my cozy little chamber and have retired to reflect, Dr Marsh Calls. I went down to see him, he had been accidentally carried by on Friday and found himself at Edisto in the morning reports all calm and quiet at Morris Island, and wishes me to accompany himself & wife to St. Augustine next week. which I promise to do I then wrote Col Elwell that I would give up my Folly Island folly if he would go with Mr & Mary Baldwin to Morris Island, and back I sent the note to him at dinner and he came in soon to tell me that he was delighted with my plan and we should go if he did not, that he had been dissuading Mary, but now he would encourage it, he seemed very happy about it and thanked me very much and wondered what I thanked him for. he wished me to go and visit Mary, but I had promised to ride with Capt Lamb if he returned from St. Helena in time, where he went to measure lumber. About ten o clock Rev Mr. Wayland of Ct 7th came to call. Mrs. Wayland had sent me the pins which I could not get during my visit - Capt Lamb Friday June 5, 1863 Went to Barnwells Timothy H Eaton 6th Ct Co A - cook at Morris Island from Stafford Springs Ct - returned to his regt Saturday June 6, 1863 Capt returned - Dr. Marsh Sanitary Com Care of B Collins 823 Broadway [Left page, upright entry, top quarter of the page] Sunday June 7. 1863 My visit to Beaufort is ended -- David is not well, and Capt Lamb came for me to return with him. which I did with - -------------------------------------- [inverted entry - last part of a entry for December 1st 1863] decks. met Capt. [ ] Reynolds of the ship on the quarterdeck, passed another hour delightfully -- was recognized as a Master Masons daughter by Capt L -= a little before sundown we again re embarked and turned toward home, Mr Baldwin is a friend of Mrs. Ambrose, my friend of Washington had met her at Saratoga with Dr. Daily - A most charming sun set purple sky. the Col waiting for us on the dock. Capt L. had dined but went with me and in the evening I resolved to attempt once more to keep a journal, and this is my first attempt, at making amends for past negligence -- Capt is asleep in the lounge and I in my chair -- _________________________________________ [Right page] Monday June 8th 1863 A cold north east morning - I went to the Capt's kitchen and assisted Cain a little in the domestic arrangements of the house, - after dinner David and I exchanged letters of the last date - Mr. Page of the Tribune called. the Col came home and at 5 o clock I went to ride with Capt L. returned at 8 - took supper. called on the Col- till 10. came home, read from Kings and Psalms till 11 1/2 and retired. - begin to think seriously of going North by the "next Arago" I fear I may be spending time to little purpose, no one really needs me here and I may perhaps serve all purposes better by going home more than by remaining.Tuesday June 9. 1863 A clear cool morning, while making my toilet the Capt. sent to ask if I would go down the beach to shoot, we with David went the Capt. had good success, I made no attempt. am not ambitious in that direction. Breakfasted. the Col took his first ride on horseback and now at 9 has gone to his office for the first time since his last 69 days -- [Upside down entry for December 1st 1863] December 1st 1863. Still cold. and still I worked among my boxes, which were moved yesterday into the house fitted for me -- at noon, or later Joe Elwell called to invite me to accompany a party to visit some ironclads lying in the harbor, over on the coast of St Helena -- I was soon ready, found waiting me at the door, the Col's carriage with Miss Baldwin and her father from Cleveland, O. friends of Col. Elwell's, Joe and Capt Gerta of 67 Ohio Regt. at the foot of the dock we met Mr Page of The Tribune -- we all went on board the "Monnohanset" and crossed over to the Lehigh -- (Monitor) came up along side and stepped on board what appeared almost a wreck. she had been under fire from five rebe[l] batteries in Charleston Harbor five hours at one time, had been hit some sixty times her smoke stack was riddled, a man could have crawled through it from side to side in a number of places -- her turret was deeply dented and the plating of the deck bore most fearful marks of plunging shots a number that penetrated the plating - which is some three inches in thickness. the broken timber is being removed and the plates replaced. she carries one 300 pounder, and one riffle gun - 11 & 8 inch bores -- the latter is worn out, no gun of that [caliber?] is safe after 1000 shots we passed an hour, very pleasantly -- and re-embarked upon our own steamer and went to the Vermont, now the Receiving Ship of this Dept. after getting permission to come alongside we did so, went below and crawled through one of the larger Port holes. met the Master of the ship Capt [Gran?], found him and [comp?] pleasant. a beautiful ship. passed up the three [?]Regular Diary - November 26, 1863 - Thanksgiving According to promise arranged to go to St Helena to visit the 7th Ct Regiment [upside down] Friday June 12, 1863 Thursday June 11, 1863Saturday June 13. 1863. I had a most restless night, was in much pain some of the time, feel as I did after the battle of Antietam a great deal of pain in my limbs. I tried to sleep in the morning, Mr Lee P.M. came in and introduced Mr Goodhue, Miss Fowler & Miss Parker of Ladies Island. Miss P. took the Arago Mrs + Mr Williams also, the three first took dinner at Capt Lambs hospitable table, the latter had some tea, I went to Robbers Row with them. I wrote or sent letters to Mrs. Gage, Mr Brown Sam & A, Upperman, B W Childs, and wrote Clarendon Harris enclosing 9 dollars. M O Poor - a sharp thunder shower at 3. a call from John Martin Capt Gov Milton. The New South published Mrs Gages poem "about a flea" Sunday June 14 1863 Could not leave my bed in the morning. remained all day. Capt watched by me Leander went to Beaufort my ear is [sore?]. The Arago sailed with Gen Hunter & staff on board - relieved - 13 guns fired between 11 & 12 - - My day was tiresome and Maj - Saxton arrived bringing my forwarded mail from Wash - letter from H.G. [Ky?] replied in the night but did not send could not sleep at all - recd letters from [???] Meaghan, Miss Stout, &c. - Amelia sent - me som collars, & silk and Sam wrote of my saddle. I think he will send me a nice one -Monday June 15 1863 better this morning - I called on the colonel. was too tired to do much but write. in the P.M. I went to ride with the Col - and came home almost exhausted I have seldom been so tired. I am not so lame as I was yesterday, but my ear is worse People begin to watch for indications of more movement in prospect some siege guns are being shipped to Folly island Tuesday June 16 1863 Taught my Contraband to wash - went to ride with Capt Lamb - home rather late Capt not feeling well, sent for Dr Craven. - recd a letter from J W. Ritchie Steam Sloop Pawnee Stono, - answered it. wrote Willis Childs. A steamer will leave tomorrow, The Capt's new housekeeper came Aunt Betsey. she does well and is washing[ton]. Called on the Col in the evening or tried to and prevented by the press.Wednesday June 17, 1863 A warm morning - I ironed had a good many things and after sewing some in the morning I ironed the remainder of the day - at 5 oclock this morning the Wehauken encountered the rebel ram - Fingal or Atlanta below here and captured her with 3 or 5 shots, - taking all her crew & all hands killing the pilot & mate She was it is said bound for this port, and then to raise the blockade information had been gained of her intention, and the Wehauken sent to lie in wait for her as she came out - the crew were brought in by the Island city, and put on board the Vermont Thursday June 18, 1863 I did not rise early, was tired finished my ironing after breakfast the Ben Deford went to Fort Pulaski with Genl Gilmore, - there is a great deal of joy expressed over the Capture of the Fingal and is at this particular time most fortunate we have one the less power to meet in the way of reducing Sumpter which I think is to be attempted after dinner. David went to ride with me, or I with him, and we made out the day till supper - caught in a little shower at Popes, stopped with cousin Viney 1st Mass Cav, - had a fine ride and have only taken supper since, - I am tired Am to ride at 5 in the morningFriday 19. June 1863 At 4 1/2 woke and got up, and soon Capt L came to call me, said the horses were coming, a little before 5 we started, and having short time for the creek we rode very fast 5 miles in 20 minutes, crossed the creek pretty deep - rode though the woods, Capt picked a basket of [ ??] blackberries while I held the horses, and we came home at 7 in reason for blackberries & short cake, I read the "Atlantic", Mrs L, Mr Page &c went to ride - did not see her, met the Colonel in the stoop he seems tired, and bade me "good night". Military matters unusually active Sending a battery to Folly Island Saturday 20. June 1863 Went to ride at 5 A.M. found all at work in the QMs dept on our return, Mary Gage came over and we prevail upon her to remain over Sunday. dined with Capt Lamb went up to Robber's row and got some print for waste, 5 yds a .30 per yd - Capt L also found me 5 yds [brilliant?] Mary commenced to fit me a waste took supper with the Col. Sat in the stoop till nine. proposed a ride in the morning at four, all agree and with this understanding we retire, Mary is [muderously?] employed while I write, It is evident that we are to have some demonstration upon the coast above, I don't know any place well.Sunday, June 21st 1863 We did not ride owing to some deficiency of riding dress for Mary, warm. I did up my own rooms. Harriet gone to Beaufort. Leander & David went to ride. Mary helped me with my difficult task. - a note from Capt & Will declaring themselves ill, we went and administered [professional?], dined, after dinner went to ride on a carriage down the beach - home by the old road - took supper, had been hungry and sleepy all the way home, - Leander's ride has given him the headache I have bathed it and he is lying on my [lounge?], a little easier. I have not read or wrote as I could have wished to do, - Monday June 22nd 1863 Mr. Davis called in the morning for me to line a bambo hat - Mary & Will went to ride I mended Capts socks, sewed on my waist and went to dinner, called home to see Col. Higginson & Dr. Rogers the Dr spent the P.M., he is a most remarkably pleasant man. [??] [Delhurst?] called & the Maj. I promised to telegraph to the Col. -- A steamer arr, bringing me letters from Mr Denney, Mr Brown & {one to Col Elwell}, Mary Norton, Sam, Capt. [??] of [Newbern?], by which I find I can go to see Stephen, Sam says he sent my saddle, and he & Amelia have gone home. Mr. B. sent a U.S. speech, I called on the Col in the evening, and in coming home with me he fell, hurt him some. -Tuesday, June 23rd 1863 A splendid morning. Mary feels the effect of her ride, I finished my jacket, had a terrapin soup at dinner & steak & chickens all kinds of vegatables excellent puddings at 6 1/2 went to ride, the Capt & I on horse back, Will and Mary in a buggy with Old Sam, - Frank and Mr Leighton joined us and our ride became very merry Dick would run to the right I almost lost patience with him, We did not reach home until near nine, - supper was waiting and after an hours chat we retired. Wednesday June 24, 1863 Surprised by the arrival of a large steamer {Fulton} with forage from [N.J.?] She brings news of the rebels in Pa, a call for troops for six months The Florida has captured six of our boats. I recd letters from Worcester Life Assurance Co., [enclosing?] 60 cts, - one from Mr. Upperman. Mary Gage went home - at night she sent us some vegetables and plums - Ate a watermellon at 9 o'clock PM, sat some time afterThursday June 25 1863 Learned that my box was at the wharf - I wrote to Sam & Emory, mailed by the Fulton The Col invited me to dine on the Fulton with Genl Gilmore and staff. I accepted and afterwards declined in favor of [Mrs?] Lander. My box came bringing my saddle & whip and some other things At 5 went to ride and try the new saddle. Col Higginson called in the evening - I am very tired Friday June 26th 1863 Bright morning, mailed some letters, wrote the Col a reply to a letter of his, called on him by request. Col Van Wyck called & his brother George - I made some soup bags for Leander & the Col - Col Van Wyck is not in love with the administration I think but does not say so - A steamer Genl Meigs arrived bringing mails and forage, I had letters from Brown & Mr. Ritchie, and I wrote some, the news up to the 22 is doleful, the rebels are in Pa, and the north even Baltimore is likely to be overrun --Saturday 27. June 1863 I rose very early, the mosquitos troubled me for the first time, - I called on the Col. by his request. he is sad, it is an anniversary week with him, he is so sensative and delicate I almost fear to speak to him on some points, and yet I do not fear. I have written Mary Norton and Capt. Denny and partly to Irving. The Col called upon me after work in the PM; it looked so likely to rain that I deferred my ride till 4 o clock tomorrow morning Sat with the Capt during the evening he is weary and troubled, he has a world of business on his hands. I wished to call on the Col but I feared I was too late, rapped and came away. David has a lame back, rubbed it, and am going to retire at 11 o clock - present time [??] Sunday 28th June 1863 Did not sleep rose at 4:20 and went to ride with the Capt, a little warm back at 6, and at 6 1/2 I am ready for breakfast - present time. A storm came up & the lightning & thunder were terrific -- had planned a ride, David & I, Capt & Leander, it continued to rain till 5. we went the old moss road and home by the beach, rode slowly to wait for the tide, crossed Folly creek up to our saddles, came home at 9 - took supper. I called on the Col, staid late. he came home with me, - The lightning struck a regiment on [Folly] St Helena. It killed one man wounded nine, and injured many.Monday 29, June 1863 The Arago came in sighs at sunrise reached the dock at ten, small mail one letter & papers from Vi. - I comm to write her, wrote Irving. went to ride with the Col. - pleasant, had no pass. got turned back upon the 3 R.I. as before, went in with him after our return, he came home with me at ten called on Capt. Lamb; Leander is writing letters - David has a lame back - I want to go home, but how can I? - arrangements made for the Arago & Fulton to run alternate once eight days, wrote a long letter to Irving.- Tuesday 30 June 1863 - Mailed letter to Irving - rose late got ready for washing my dresses did so and ironed some,- [?] recd a letter from Mary Gage desired to go to Beaufort, we replied by telegraph, and went to ride leaving them to follow after. rain caught us stopped at the house of a neighbor, then went on and [we rode?] back and went to the mill, had our [h??] put out, and [??????????] [???ed] us, we gave up our long ride, came home, took supper Sat a while and retired.Wednesday 1 July 1863 A bright warm morning I resumed my ironing. find myself quite a laundress, - after dinner I received a note from the Col. passed an hour with him. he seems a little thoughtful. at 5 1/2 a party went to ride from the [???] Capt Gadsden, and it gave the impulse for us and we went out at 6, rode the Braddock pt road, some remark made me thoughtful of all the happiness I was receiving and that I must return to the stern duties of life and I, although willing and anxious to do so, could not loose sight of the gentle care I must resign, I wept long and fear I was poor company. - The moon rose high the clouds followed, a thunder storm as I had never seen. we tried to outride it but met it at the Sally Port and took reffuge in the Magazine of Fort Thursday 2 July - 1863 Tired this morning, got my wet saddle and clothes out to dry, hemmed Capt L Napkins, rested, had a quiet day my ear troubles me. the weather is very warm. - Col went to Beaufort and passed last night, returned this morning. he brought me Tennyson have been reading Locksley Hall. Still continued to sew, and at evening spent an hour with the Capt. Capt. Gadsden's party went to ride again and the Col accompanied them he returned very weary - we did not rideFriday July 3, 1863 Early in the morning Mr Leighton came from Beaufort with a message from Mary Gage to come for her Will & I decided to go, while dressing. Mr Goodhue & Miss Fowler came to wait for the Arago, - The Hunter waited for us to meet her in a small boat, - dined on board, took a carriage and went to Mr Landers for her, we rode some, went to the boat a great many ladies going north we were to ride but Gen Gilmore desired the Capt to go to Tilly island he left at 10 - on the Ben Deford - went in with the Col awhile, there is a prospect of trouble at Morris Island I begin to feel that we are to have work in our department Mary & I slept in the Capts room Frank [?] had gone to Beaufort Saturday July 4, 1863 Arago sailed close [?] we breakfasted quite alone the Capt not returning till noon - Frank came home still later - Leander went to ride with some gent and at 6 1/2 our four horses came we started down the beach, Dr. Dalrymple & Mary Banister came on, we all stopped at the signal station, the Dr & Mary returned and we went on to the road which leads to Lawtons. 3 miles from Bradock Point, the 1st Mass cav, stationed there led us up it was very dark and Lieut Moore, we had a trout of the water & rake, and after a most pleasant [?] left as the moon was rising about 9. rode [?] a few miles - Braddocks Point is 15 miles from Hilton Head. Lawtons 12 miles by the beach, 10 by road - for the last 5 or 6 miles, Will & Mary led and after some little training of the Capt's horse we followed at some speed and back into town, took supper in my room and after a [?] jolly time till we were all sleepy we retired -- Sunday July 5th, 1863 Slept late and had much to do as my girl had gone, swept and worked till noon, when Mary decided to go home. [?] who had telegraph business at [?] Island - The day wasted and most unpleasant you led that there is going to be a move and I am in [?] to go and do any good, I cannot [feel thanks?] my [?] at all understood and we got the worst of reports from Penn. & Washington then [?] in the coming months and [?] of the saved [?} [?] part of the letter - [?] see the [?] me with [?] to go with work [?]Monday July 6th 1863 Sewed most of the day. Took my clothes to Aunt Betsey to wash little of interest to me occurred - but the troops are being gathered in and sent to Folly Island very rapidly Genl Gilmore is pushing his whole dept, troops being called from all quarters and moved in the [next?] [?] to cross the bar at Stono in the dark, begin to realize that my box from Worcester containing my riding dress came by the Ben Deford long since not been properly discharged and feared is lost Got some trace of it at St. Helena - Col Barton's camp his troop having come up from Pulaski on the B.D. a man has been dispatched by my tireless friend Capt L. to look for it day by day till found I do not deserve such friends as I find, and how can I deserve them, I fear that in these later years Our Heavenly Father is too merciful to me. Tuesday July 7. 1863 Three months today since we landed at Hilton Head in the sound of the guns at Charleston harbor and today Genl Gilmore left to join his troops in another expedition. at noon found that Aunt Betsey was sick and took my clothes and washed them myself - worked dreadfully hard dried [them] my clothes in Capt [?] at night and ironed them [?] Wednesday July 8 1863 in the morning and made ready to go to [?] [Island?] Col Van Wyck called and decided to go with him to [on the?] Ben Deford but was delayed concluded to go with the Col next [??] Thursday July 9. 1863 at daybreak started on board the Canonicus with Col Elwell, his orderlies Henry & Roderick & John left a lonely lot of friends at home, reached Folly Island at noon, recrossed the bar to look after the Ben Deford which had run back to Seabrook to coal, lit the buoys, got her in, rested some during the night and on Friday July 10th 1863 at daylight the guns commenced to fire upon Morris Island, we landed troops, shelled the batteries, and charged the entrenchments and drove them up to the NE point of the island, then our boat crossed around into light house inlet, and we witnessed the contest between Sumpter and the batteries, and the crew [?] was some sick with the swell, took in the pontoon bridges, had the [?] [?] Schooner in tow, we took [Mary?] [ ?] from NJ, very pleasant - recd two letters from Capt, one brot by Jones who took my [ ] to me, on board the Colins, was going to ride [??] my horse was let, has been out all [day -??] Col. [ ] Charlie to [ ] [same on ???] from the Cosmopolitan, brings papers of the [??] [???] of fall of [Vicksburg?], Capture of [L???] brot a [???] from the Capt. [ ] supper at dusk Capt [Mo?] & Col [?] called -- [?] write and [?] up and [?] [?] last in wounded [????]Saturday July 11 - 1863 Firing resumed at Fort Sumpter, and owing to the falling back of the 76 Penn, our forces had to retire from the storming of Fort Wagner. Lost 90 men - wounded. My home still out Cannot go on shore, recd letters from the [Tufts?] and from Col. Howe, and two from Sam & Amelia answered Col Howe, wrote the Judge, Mary Norton, Brown, Mrs Stout, [?? ] - the Col. went on shore, brot me a pass from Genl. Gilmore by Provost Marshall Hall - Genl Terry is likely to be [attached?]. Mary wants to come up. Col. will send for her. Wish Shaver was here - Sunday July 12. 1863 Col woke me early to ride with him up to the works,- then decided to go in the ambulance Sent for Jones, Col went early - left my saddle & trunk with John took over my box, left the rem- nant of that at the Q.M.s on shore and took in the Chaplain of the 9th Maine. {Strout} and came up to the first hospital on the beach to my joy met Mr. Day whom I had met every where, he came out to me with extended hands and I said so I said yesterday that you would be here - have you forgotten Antietam and South Mountain [had?] 2nd Bull run -- come in, come in" -- it was a joyous greeting to me - I felt so alone and timid - I went in to see the wounded. was introduced to the Dr. in charge Dr. [?] also to [?] [?] who went to the point, we decided to pass on and they would follow. we [came onto the boat?] at lighthouse Inlet, where our boats landed on [m????] came up to Genl Voghdies head quarters [and?] ate a box of cherries which Capt Saml had sent me by the Capt of the Ranger, went with Genl V thru his entrenchments, came back to my ambulance the Genl took a nap in it, Col Elwell came often to see me, and finally went away to Folly Creek. the Capt of the Planter sent me some Lemonade and the Capt of the Philadelphia Capt Dakins came out to invite me to supper and remain I went with him, found nice accommodations good supper, at dusk, the 4th N. H. Band commenced a seranade, down at the waters edge and closed with 3 cheers for Miss --- The Florence Nightingale of Antietam -- I wish I deserved all the praise they award me -- John [N?cls ] came and brot me a bottle of wine. I chatted with Capt Dakins till nine oclock Monday 13, 1863 -- After breakfast, Genl Gilmore's boat crew came and took me off the boat and over the Inlet to the landing on Morris Island. [I went to] I had my ambulance backed to the water and stepped in and started up the Island, went past the old lighthouse which Fort Sumpter was shelling at that moment, the firing was steady but not terrific, a little farther in. Col Hall provost marshall came out and offered me his aid in anything I might need and we turned down the beach to Dr. Cravens Hospital [here?] we found Dr. Dibble of Gen Seymours staff. Dr. [] 100 NY. Buffalo. Dr. [ ] [Lockport?] N.Y. all very pleasant gentlemen. Dr. Craven cleared a tent for me and I spent the remainder of the day. Met Dr. Barlow [whom?] I had seen at [ ] at Cedar Mountain. Tuesday 14. July 1863. At invitation of Capt Dakins I went over to the Philadelphia to breakfast and remained [after] till afternoonmet Lieut. Reynolds of U.S. Artillery, Capt. Comstock 3rd R.I., wrote Lieut. Ritchie and Sam. Jones went to Stono to look for my trunk and saddle, but the “Canonicus” had taken them to Hilton Head and not returned I came back to my tent wrote and retired. Wednesday July 15. 1863 This is Spring Tide and all are looking with great interest for the "Iron Sides" to come over the bar. Three Monitors lie off, the “Paul Jones”, and a number of men of war inside, the “Wabash” outside, The “Pawnee” is in James Island Inlet. Jones brot over breakfast from the Phil, the Capt. called himself. The surgeons were all attentive, at noon John [Nicols?] came with my horse and saddle, dined with us - Chaplain Strout, Main 9. came literally reeling to my tent, had had a fever all night, was faint and hungry. I gave him what I had left, hard cracker, some herring, and he ate with the tears on his face, and called a young Lieut. of the 76th to come and partake with him, what was almost as much of a treat to the kind hearted Chaplain as to eat himself. - They were taken to the hospital on the other side. Mr. Hill of Boston connected with the Engineers, made me a very pleasant call - The Capt. of the Phil. called. The Canonicus came came up with Col. Mrs. Lander and Miss Gage on board. At night I called on Mr. Daye Sanitary Com- Thursday July 16, 1863 I had my horse saddled in the morning to ride up the sand hills and witness the encounter between our gun boats, and Genl. Terry's division. The McDonough lay in Folly Inlet and the Pawnee in Little Folly on the other side of James Island. Genl. Terry's division lay between. The firing was sharp, finally the enemy retired, leaving the ground to us with eight killed and 27 wounded, - I rode my secesh horse up to within 80 rods of Fort Wagner, till I came within the range of the shots from the Paul Jones as she was firing diagonally at the fort, her shots fell short and burst on the beach just in front of me, and I stopped, looked through my glass a few minutes, at Fort Sumpter, Wagner our entrenchments, the Moultrie house, and Charleston in the distance, and then returned by the beach, not liking to risk a shower - I was invited on board the Philadelphia to dine and rode down to the boat, the Capt. put out a ladder, I stepped from my horse to it, climbed up, dined, staid till 2 1/2 - my horse came, I mounted as I dismounted from the ladder and came home. - Mrs. Lander and Mary had gone up the beach in an ambulance, and called as I had just taken off my skirt. - They, Mr. Page Mr. Severance and someone else. They invited me to go on board the Canonicus and visit [th?] I was intending to go, when one of Mrs. L's characteristic speeches set me aside and I said I would'nt go, and I would nt I sent for my letters on board, and among them one from Stephen to David. I was so glad to hear from him. I went down to the Canonicus with my ambulance, met the [ladies?] & [gents?] & the Col. also came on board to go. I consulted with him in reference to Mary who would like to stay. I was willing andglad to have her do so, and she came home with me, the [Col?] gave us some dishes we had had none before, and we had little need of them as we had no morsel but hard bread and that a little wormy. I had a paper of tea in my trunk and on our return had a cup [made?] and for once it was really a [rarity/variety?] - an improvement upon the crackers in their dry state. We had some calls and retired, the Canonicus with the Col went to the [head] Point. to see to the drawing of Genl Terry's men from James Island, which was done. Friday, July 17, 1863 Mary's first day in camp - we had call from Mr Davis, the surgeons - Mr Day - he spoke to me of certain opinions of Dr. Marsh. I then wrote Mr Day a note, he called, I spoke with Dr Dibble, Dr Marsh called, very pleasant. -- I have decided that I cannot suffer vicarious atonement. Saturday, July 18, 1863 This is the day for the bombardment of Fort Wagner. The [blank line] formed into a circle and commenced firing at ten o'clock continued thru the day at night the [ ] were stormed, we watched [ ] upon the Lookout hill, Leander came and brot my [stores?] - the [scene? ] was [grand beyond description?] [ ] at nine [ ] the [ ] with [ ] [ ] - fed them as well as we could Col. Frank Lamb, Leander & Mary staid in my tent. I did not sleep - our forces were driven back the Fort not taken, our [ ] a thousand our men stood on the parapets, many fell under the Fort Sunday July 19, 1863 [ ] to get the wounded all away in boats The Cosmopolitan, Mary Benton - our men were taken at the last moment, all who were badly enough wounded to make it necessary, Mary went down on the Mary Benton - I worked as well as I could - Col was here often - no firing Monday July 20, 1863 Much the same, calls - did what I could, cannot give details as I have neglected to keep up my journal in my haste to do, and all the inconveniences I have to suffer in the way of being able to get anything ready for the men to eat. - Tuesday July 21 1863 The boats returned - Genl Terry's command came up - Mary returned. Will and Frank had a few men came into hospital, some new and some old - Flags of Truce -- Wednesday July 22 1863 - The regts settling in - the 48 NY returned to HH. a mere remnant - I had a tent pitched in the rear of mine, some more men removed among them [ ] Battery men of Co I R.I. atty Saml Kirk, my Baby as I [noted?] him, [ ] but brave, had burned arm broken three [times?] little finger blown off - wept because I could not go on the boat with him from Lansdale I wrote to his Father, and wrote for Mr. Williams Mr [Gillett?], and a number of others -- At night a most fatal shell landed among our men and two of the 100 NY were brot in terribly wounded, one the leg blown off at the knee, the other with [ ]completely open from from ear to nose like a butchered hog! I [wanted?] to see them die before the Surgeons touched them. Dr Kittenger of the 100, NY. operated, Dr Barlow was present. I covered them with [sable?] blankets , it rained and was cold - I was astonished to see how comfortable they seemed after dressing and being laid away. I went on with the Dr to see them in the evening, both sleeping - Thursdy July 23, 1868 This is the day for the Arago to sail. I have written to Brown, Newell, Irving, &c - got a camp kettle and Jones is making hominy for the men - The wounded of yesterday very comfortable - there has been a man appointed to take the cooking and reports to me. I arrange the meal each timeask if the Board of Tax Commissioneres in Florida is full. Dr. Marsh -Paul '77coal Bedstead Sofa Chair curtains Oil cloth castor goblets cups & saucers ice pitcher soap - knives & forks salt mustard Tea pot - vessel plates