[ Music ] >> Sponsored by the James Madison Council. [ Music ] >> Alison Starling: Hello, everyone. Welcome to the 2021 Library of Congress National Book Festival. I'm Alison Starling from 7News right here in DC. So happy to be joining you today and very happy to introduce our author, the lovely Katherine May. She is the author of "Wintering; The Power of Rest and Retreat in Difficult Times." Katherine, so good to see you today. >> Katherine May: It's so nice to meet you. Thank you for having me. >> Alison Starling: Wonderful. I look forward to our conversation. I know most of you know of Katherine. But briefly, she is a "New York Times" bestselling author. Her titles do include "Wintering," which we will discuss today. Also "The Electricity of Every Living Thing," which is her memoir about being autistic. And her fiction includes "The Whitstable High Tide Swimming Club" and "Burning Out." She is also the editor of "The Best, Most Awful Job," I love that title, an anthology of essays about motherhood. But, again, we're here to talk today about "Wintering," and there's a lot to get to about this. You know, I know it's been described, Katherine, as part memoir, part poetry, part nature writing. Would you say that's an accurate description? >> Katherine May: Yeah, I mean, I think my books are a good representation of the inside of my head. So it's a big jumble of loads of different kinds of feeds really. So on one hand, I love to write memoir, I love to write from life, but I also like to draw in bits of mythology, literature, you know, maybe some science, some anthropology, some social sciences. The whole thing goes into a cauldron, and I stir it up. >> Alison Starling: And a lot to get to. I wanted to mention to everybody joining us today, we will have time at the end of our conversation to get to questions. So please, any time you can submit those questions, it doesn't have to be at the end. So feel free, if you think of anything, to throw that in. So, okay, so it's certainly part memoir, "Wintering." Tell me where you were in your life at the time of writing this and some of the experiences that inspired the story. >> Katherine May: Yeah, so, I mean, wintering came at the intersection of a load of quite difficult life events really. The book opens with a moment when I was just approaching my 40th birthday, and I'd gone to the beach to celebrate. And my husband came down very suddenly with an appendicitis, which turned out to be life-threatening and very terrifying. And the strange thing was that I'd been already suffering from abdominal pain for a few weeks before that. And so, as he was recovering, I was becoming sicker. And I had to be signed off work. I couldn't go to my job. I was leading a creative writing course at university. And "Wintering" kind of captures that time of this cocktail of emotions, I think, that will be familiar to so many of us at a time of crisis. You know, the fear. The sense of dislocation from the rest of the world. The worries about the present. The worries about the future. Also that very strong sense that you're no longer in step with the life that everyone else is leading and that you've fallen through the cracks to some extent. And so "Wintering" is about that perfect storm really that takes us out of the everyday. >> Alison Starling: Well, one of the themes that you discuss, which I find really, really interesting, is the idea that nature is telling us to live in a more cyclical way, and we don't always respond to that. And I'm sure that's where the title partially comes from. Describe for me how you feel about nature and its cycles and how we should respond to it. >> Katherine May: I think there are some hefty clues in the natural world to how we can cope better with this peculiar modern world that we find ourselves in. And, I mean, nature operates in cycles. It doesn't do what we do, which is to try and pretend that the dark months aren't there and so turn on the light and ramp the heating up and kind of wish them away. It actually lives in full engagement with the winter. And, in fact, when I started to look at certain species of trees, door mice -- which I had the lovely experience of holding a door mouse -- and also bees, like all of those different natural forms, their whole life is pointed towards the winter rather than away from it. So even in the summer, they're trying to manage it. So it becomes really a book about the radical acceptance of winter and knowing it's inevitable, but therefore, changing the way we behave so that we can cope with it better. >> Alison Starling: And so practically, you know, for those of us, including yourself, living in this world that's busy and crazy, and we have, we're being pulled in many, many directions. What suggestions or practical things have you done to follow this guidance of allowing ourselves to take a winter when we need it? >> Katherine May: So the first important thing to say is that wintering can be metaphorical. It doesn't actually have to happen in the winter. Although a lot of our deepest winters do happen in the season of winter too, because those dark months can really affect our mental and physical health as well. So there is often a correlation. But some, as I say, the first line of the book is, you know, some winters happen in the sun. What we can do is to stop trying to pretend it isn't happening, to really almost lean into our winters, to feel the feelings that come up as they come up. And that will be a whole range of different things that come at different times. And, you know, one of the things I talk about in the book is the active acceptance of sadness as a very real and valid and actually almost beautiful emotion in its purest form. But I also talk about how we can make ourselves comfortable during our winters. You know, how we can alleviate our suffering by taking great care of ourselves. And I, you know, I think about the different ways it affects us. For example, sleep is a really important part of the book. I look at how our sleep patterns are supposed to change in winter, and that it's really normal to wake up in the middle of the night and to have a period of activity. But we have turned that into yet another crisis. So lots of different ways to think about how to winter very consciously and very mindfully. >> Alison Starling: We have to talk about the pandemic. And the timing of this book is so appropriate in so many ways for people, because really what's happened with quarantine and our life in the last year and a half has forced many of us to embrace this idea of wintering and sort of hibernating and doing things in a slower way. But you wrote this book before the pandemic. Tell me about the timing and how all of that's played out. >> Katherine May: Yeah, I mean, very strangely, so the book came out last February, sorry, last March in the UK. So about six months before it came out in the U.S. And I had about two weeks when people felt that "Wintering" was about entirely other things than the pandemic. And then everything locked down, and from then on people really saw it as a kind of guide to how to live through a pandemic. And, you know, I began to see the word "wintering" used all over the place to talk about a mass wintering or a collective wintering, which I think is really what we've been into. But, of course, when it came out in America, a lot of people assumed that I'd written it during the pandemic, and it's a book about the pandemic. But, of course, there's nothing in there that mentions the pandemic at all. But we, you know, we give a book a reading as well as taking a reading from it. And so what readers brought to the book by them was the situation that they were living in. And so people have talked about it as a pandemic guide [inaudible]. It's a strange honor, that one. >> Alison Starling: Yeah, what has that experience been like for you to watch something that you wrote about your purely personal experiences come on the scene at a time when everybody was going through it, kind of forced into it really. What has that experience been like for you to watch your book transform with the times? >> Katherine May: I mean, actually, it's been thrilling, I have to say. I mean, I, like I'm a helper. I'm one of those people that, if someone pulls over in the street, I'm there trying to give my Girl Guide first aid. And I felt with this book that, as though I've been able to help my, in my tiny little way. You know, I have few enough practical skills, but it's been so affirming to actually be something, sort of produced a book that people can turn to at this massive moment of crisis. And just to allow it to speak to us in those different ways, because actually we've all been wintering differently in this pandemic time. You know, like some of us have been lonely. Some of us have been overwhelmed because there's children in the house all the time. Some of us have been sick. Some of us have been afraid of being sick. Some of us have been just really worried about other people. You know, there's been so many ways it hit us. And that's exactly the point I was trying to make with this book, that wintering is this state we have in common that comes to us for loads of different reasons. And so, yeah, I'm very, very, very happy to have thrown that into the outside world at a time when loads of people really needed to drink it up. >> Alison Starling: I mentioned in the introduction about your memoir, where you discussed being autistic. In your book "Wintering" you say that you experienced wintering in at a very young age. Tell me a little bit about that experience and how that prepared you for writing this book as well. >> Katherine May: Yeah, so "The Electricity of Every Living Thing" was my memoir that came out before "Wintering" in the UK, but it's about to finally come out in the states. And I discovered late in life that I was autistic. Like lots of women my age, we're finally getting a diagnosis now. And it's the diagnosis we needed all through our childhood, because my childhood followed the very common pattern for autistic people of being incredibly socially isolated. Feeling not just unable to fit in with everyday social life, but actually feeling alien, like being really conscious that I was different. And I knew the way I thought and the way I felt operated differently to all the kids around me, but not having any way to articulate that. And, I mean, I wouldn't want to say that this is true of every single autistic person, but it is near as done it's so common. Of course, that affected my mental health very badly. I was depressed from a young age. I dealt with, you know, self-harm and suicidal thoughts and severe anxiety as well, which is very common, and an eating disorder. Like the list is just something that all late-diagnosed autistic women will repeat to you. So in that sense I've now learnt I'm very normal within my cohort and within my community, but we are expert winterers. And those of us that make it through have learnt some skills. And, in fact, wintering is, you know, is what we learned if we're able to survive. And I got to the point in my life, once I'd realized what I was and I could process that and I could start to cope, when I felt like I actually had something finally to pass on that was useful, that all of that hardship was actually a toolkit that I think everybody could use at some point in their life. And despite the sort of common belief about autism, like most autistic people report that they're over empathetic rather than under empathetic. And I feel enormous empathy and commonality with anyone who's wintering, because it's been an incredibly familiar state of being for me in my life. And I, you know, I like to think I'm an expert winterer. >> Alison Starling: Within the book festival this year, there is a larger question that all of, they've asked all of us moderators to pose to our authors this year, and this is it. It features our theme. The theme of the National Book Festival this year is simply open a book, open the world. And the follow-up question is, how have books opened the world for you? >> Katherine May: Oh, hugely. I mean, I grew up in a house without loads of books. And when I was around about nine, about the age my son is now, I lived in a village. A tiny library was opened down the road from me in a tiny corner of land. And that moment, it was just such excitement, and I read that whole library. You know, I went down there, and I read -- and they didn't have loads of books. They didn't have loads of books that were appropriate for me. But I had a choice of like Catherine Cookson sagas or the complete works of Steven King, and I went for Steven king. So I, and I just, I read whatever I could find there. And I, and there was one particular book that I remember picking off the shelf there, which was an adventure memoir about climbing mountains called "Wild Horizons," I think. And it opened up possibilities to me about what you could write about, what writing was, and what you could do in the world. And so, yeah, there we go. I mean, I don't think there's a reader in the world that hasn't had an encounter with a book that's completely changed how they see their possibilities and what their life could be. >> Alison Starling: And how about, you mentioned your son, who is eight years old, does he like to read? And do you guys read together? >> Katherine May: He's not the world's most enthusiastic reader. I'm going to admit that because I think that's probably a service to many parents out there who think that their kid's the only one. He enjoys comics. He enjoys the "Dog Man" books, Dav Pilkey, "Dog Man" books and "Captain Underpants" and things like that. I'm always finding ways to sneak reading under his radar. So if I say to him like, sit down and read this book, he'll resist it very hard. But if I can find something that he's interested in the time and go, oh, I happen to have found this little bit of information, do you fancy having a look? Then I begin to get him reading. But I, you know, he can read, which is fantastic. He doesn't always choose to. Sometimes the best we can do is another round through the Pokemon encyclopedia. And I think sometimes we just have to take what we can get. But I've yet to really pass on my passion for reading to him, and I hope one day I'll manage it. I'm working on it. >> Alison Starling: I'm glad you mentioned "Captain Underpants" because our Librarian of Congress, Dr. Carla Hayden, who I know you know, she's amazing. And we love her so much. She says that is her favorite children book series, and that she loves to celebrate that series, to tell parents all about it. >> Katherine May: We should never denigrate books like that. And, I mean, I never know if it's Dav or Dave. I never know, you know, if it's how he spells his name. So apologies if I'm getting it wrong, but he's talked a lot about his own ADHD. So he's another neuro-divergent person. It's so important for us to talk about different ways of being in the world and, you know, the fact that for some kids school is a real struggle. He articulates that so fantastically. And he's just a brilliant like model for talking about creativity as well. I, we should never, ever think that these are lesser books just because they're in a cartoon format. They're wonderful. >> Alison Starling: Yeah. I wanted to remind everybody, again, that we are very happy to take any questions. If anybody has anything you'd like to ask Katherine May who, by the way, had her birthday yesterday. Happy birthday. >> Katherine May: Yea, thank you. [ Multiple Speakers ] >> Alison Starling: I hope you did something very special, and that I'm glad you're spending -- >> Katherine May: I had a swim. >> Alison Starling: The day after with us. What's that? >> Katherine May: I swam in the sea, and I went for pizza. >> Alison Starling: Sounds like a perfect birthday. >> Katherine May: Good enough for me. >> Alison Starling: So I wanted to, there's, I wanted to read -- and I just want to make sure this is okay with you first -- the very last passage of the book. Do you have a problem if I read that? >> Katherine May: No problem at all. >> Alison Starling: It was, it spoke to me very much, and I wanted to just read this and then get your thoughts. Because I always wonder how an author, you work so hard on a book and then you get to the end, and it's like how do I sum this up in a way that is really appropriate? >> Katherine May: How did I finish? [ Multiple Speakers ] >> Alison Starling: But I thought this was beautiful. >> Katherine May: Yeah, >> Alison Starling: Here it is. "It often seems easier to stay in winter, burrow down into our hibernation nest, away from the glare of the sun. But we are brave, and the new world awaits us, gleaming and green, alive with the beat of wings. And besides, we have a kind of gospel to tell now and a duty to share it. We who have wintered have learned some things, we sing it out like birds. We let our voices fill the air." And I love how you end this book on such a positive note after describing really difficult times in your life. >> Katherine May: Yeah, and, I mean, actually, funny enough, it wasn't hard to write that ending. I was looking for something that obviously drew everything together, but I was looking for something that really drew the reader into the page and made them part of that story. And the thing I wanted to say most of all was that, you know, wisdom comes from winter, and we don't get our full wisdom until we've suffered a little. And that is an enormous gift to take back out into the world. It doesn't mean to say that it's not horrible and that we haven't gone through terrible things, but the world needs us, more than ever, once we come out of the other side of that, and we have something really substantial that we can offer after that and that we can pass on. And, yeah, I'd written a little about song and singing in the previous chapter, and I wanted to turn everybody into beautiful birds going out and singing their gospel at the end. >> Alison Starling: And it's interesting because you laid that out earlier, talking about your experiences as a teenager and your bouts with anxiety and depression and coming through that and having learned tools that got you through it safely to the other side, that you felt very strongly about sharing those. >> Katherine May: Absolutely. And I think I say in the book somewhere but, you know, you can let that turn bitter in you or you can let it fill you with compassion. And I strongly feel that compassion is the right way to go. >> Alison Starling: Well, we have about 10 minutes left. And, again, I want to ask anybody who is able, to please send us one of your questions. And I do have two questions so far. And the first one is from Sarah. Sarah, thank you for sending us your question. And Sarah asks, do you view writing as a kind spiritual practice? >> Katherine May: I wish I did. I actually find it really hard. I find it a kind of torment. I don't think my spiritual life happens on the page, interestingly. But I do, I know that's true for some people. I am just a very angsty kind of a writer. But I do find that I use it to process thoughts, feelings, ideas, like even opinions. Like I quite often need to write about something before I know what I actually think about it. And I think it's, you know, it's my way of really delving deep in, making connections, making associations and understanding my own response and my own, you know, more complex feelings about something. So it definitely has huge utility in my lie, and I survive very badly without it. But I, no, I think being outside and walking and swimming in the sea are my spiritual spaces. Writing is just fraught. >> Alison Starling: Well, there's a different kind of pressure, I would imagine, when you're writing as a career versus what many of us do and write in a journal or whatever. I mean, you feel a different pressure. >> Katherine May: Yeah. Yes, absolutely. And I do, I mean, I have particular notebooks that I absolutely promise myself nobody, it will never turn into professional writing, and that's quite freeing. But I was always a fraught writer right from the start before I was a professional. When I first sat down to write, I found I couldn't at all because I was so desperate to produce something beautiful. And I had to go into therapy to be able to write a word. So, I mean, that's how fraught I am about writing. >> Alison Starling: Wow. >> Katherine May: I don't make it sound very appealing ever, I don't think. >> Alison Starling: Well, speaking of being fraught, we have an interesting question here. And this is from Hanyah Zara [assumed spelling]. What do you suggest for someone who gets very anxious during difficult times? What should such a person do to keep their nerves calm? >> Katherine May: I mean, I've, the two big things that I've learnt to do, first of all, is to find things that deliberately sooth you. Like not to tell yourself that that anxiety isn't real or it's not valid. You know, like I have lots of different self-soothing techniques that I know work that I turn to regularly, even when I'm not feeling anxious to keep on top of it that I definitely have, you know, in my toolkit when I'm anxious. And this will be different for everyone, but I can definitely tell you mine. So mine is swimming in the cold sea. Like I live near the sea, and I love the water. And the colder the better. It really helps to calm me. Equally, a very hot bath, like the two extremes work for me. But being submerged in water really help. I also, I love to cook. And if I'm feeling really anxious, I'll cook something long and complex. And that, I think it's just working with the hands actually that I find very soothing. And as an emergency measure, if I'm out of the house, I have a bottle of peppermint oil that I will put on a handkerchief. And I will sit down quietly and sniff. And, you know, it's just something that counteracts that rolling cycle that goes on in your head when you're extremely anxious, like something that just breaks through. But I only got to those things through trial and error. And, you know, being autistic, I needs lots of time and space and peace. And know I get more anxious if I spend too much time with people in busy environments and noisy environments. So I've changed my lifestyle a lot. And I, you know, I make sure I'm well exercised. The other big thing that's worked massively for me is learning meditation. And I know loads of anxious people think that sounds hideous, like being caught with your own thoughts in the quiet, but it has been the only thing for me that has ever really got on top of my chronic anxiety, is sitting down quietly every day and repeating a mantra. And it's massively helped me. And I would recommend it for anyone just to try it and to put aside their cynicism about what their brain can do, because, believe me, I had a very noisy, anxious brain as well, and it really has helped me. >> Alison Starling: I wholeheartedly agree on the meditation. I started that a few years ago too, and it is life-changing on many levels. And until you do it, it's hard to understand why, but I agree with you there. And I have a similar question from Eileen. And she says, how do you sustain a positive attitude and avoid depression when challenges seem to never end? For example, the pandemic? Eileen's saying, you know, we thought it would be just a few month, and yet here it still goes on. So we have the anxiety side, but then there's also just keeping a positive attitude. >> Katherine May: It's incredibly hard. And, you know, like for both of your correspondents, I would really say like never be afraid to go to your doctor about this as well. There's no shame in it, that these things are diseases, and they will take you down and, you know, take them really seriously. But the big mental trick for me is I don't try and maintain a positive attitude. I let myself feel terrible about it. And this pandemic time has been awful, like there is no mitigating the fact that it's been terrible. And you have every right to have hated this period in your life. It's absolutely fine. You don't have to go out and feel great about it. But what you can do is keep going back and deliberately soothing yourself, like try and process your feelings, like maybe write them down. Because writing is so fraught for me, I often voice record my feelings. I go for a walk and talk into my phone, because like that takes all the pressure off. That's not my job, so it's like all the pressure's taken away. But I will double down on the things that soothe me. And, you know, that for you might be spending time with other people online or whatever as much as you can. For me it's the opposite. It's making sure I get enough peace, quiet. Listening to music. Burning scented candles. Dimming the lights in the evening. Like I'm walking, walking, walking, walking, walking. I swear to god I can walk all my bad emotions out. They gradually absorb into the ground the longer I walk for. But it's about finding your own palette of soothing. And not just knowing it, but allowing yourself those items that soothe you, those practices that soothe you, because I, like a lot of us just don't take that final step. We know the stuff that helps, but we don't award ourselves that because we don't think we deserve it. We don't think we're suffering enough. I find you got feel a bit fed up, and I'm like, right, where's the hot bath, you know? [ Inaudible ] >> Alison Starling: Well, we just have a few minutes left, but I also have a question. You mentioned voice recording a minute ago, and I have a question from Jack. And he says, as creative work, how does podcasting differ from writing? Does it get in the way of your writing work? Or do you feel like it enhances it? >> Katherine May: Definitely enhances. I'm very good at ditching stuff that gets in the way of my writing. I started my podcast wintering sessions in the middle of the pandemic actually. And one of the reasons for that was that people kept telling me about their wintering experiences in response to my telling of mine. And I thought, wow, actually these are stories we don't tell out loud because they feel like quite small stories, but they're actually big and universal and meaningful. So I invite people to come and tell me their wintering story. And for me it enhanced it because I hear different corners of the story that I'm constantly trying to retell. I get to understand how other people conceptualize it and process it. And I get contact with my creative community and that can be very hard to come by over the last couple of years. So podcasting has let me have really lovely in-depth conversations with a whole range of fascinating people. And, you know, we go there. We really, I, you know, I don't let anyone come on if they're feeling at all iffy about talking about it. Like I always say, maybe this isn't the right time for you if you're feeling uncomfortable around this. Like you're always welcome, but maybe not now. But most people are like, yes, I definitely want to tell you about this really vile time in my life, please give me an hour to talk about it. And, I mean, don't you think that that's the great gift of podcast, is the level of depth that we can go into. I mean, we, you know, mainstream media have never been able to do that. It's always been, you know, about the kind of packaged up, neat segment. And I think podcasts are giving us that lovely contrast, which is ambulatory conversation which feels very real and very much more often like those conversations we might have late night with a friend, I think. >> Alison Starling: Yeah. Well, final minute here. I do have one more question, and this is from Helen. And the question is, what was an early experience where you learned that language had power? >> Katherine May: Oh, that's a wonderful question. I'm going to tell you a really embarrassing anecdote actually. That when I was about six years old, for our school assembly, they invited the local mayor in. And he came in and asked us to ask him questions. And all the kids were sort of saying to him, what color are your socks? You know, things like those, what did you have for dinner? Because nobody, you know, infant schoolchildren just didn't know what to ask. And the head teacher said, right, the next question has got to be a really good question. Can someone think of a really good, intelligent question to ask this man. So I put my hand up. And I asked what I thought was like a psychological question. I was going to psych him out. So I said, do you bite your nails? Which I thought was smart. I wanted to know if the pressure was getting to him. I got sent out of the room by my head teacher for asking a silly question. >> Alison Starling: Really. >> Katherine May: And I've resented it ever since, I won't lie to you. It was one of those things [inaudible] -- [ Multiple Speakers ] >> Alison Starling: Did they, did he answer your, did they answer you? No? They didn't have a -- >> Katherine May: No, no. >> Alison Starling: -- chance to answer before you got sent out? >> Katherine May: Yeah. But I, you know, like I think a really well-timed, clever question like that could have been very insightful for the interior life of this man. >> Alison Starling: I think that's a wonderful question. Well, listen, unfortunately, our time has come to an end, I'm so sorry to say. But this has just been lovely and thank you so much for your time. And thanks to everybody who joined us and who sent in their questions. It was wonderful. >> Katherine May: Thank you, it's been very lovely to talk. >> Alison Starling: Thank you. [ Music ]